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The Elusive Self-Worth, or The Vicious Cycle of Low Self-Worth/Depression/Even Lower Self-Worth/More Depression…

The Elusive Self-Worth, or The Vicious Cycle of Low Self-Worth/Depression/Even Lower Self-Worth/More Depression…

We all want and need validation, right? It helps us become well-adjusted and realize that we are worthy. Well, I’ve been learning quite a bit about that lately. Take my relationship with my mom, for example. She’s great, really. She has always let me make and learn from my own mistakes and has never really butted into my life, which I appreciate. And yet… I spent a couple decades trying to “make” her proud of me. I would send her…

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The Many Faces of Depression, Plus 10 Tips

The Many Faces of Depression, Plus 10 Tips

It used to be that depression, for me, was pretty straightforward. I sounded depressed, I acted depressed, I looked depressed. I felt, well, depressed. It’s not so simple anymore. After dealing with it for over thirty years, I assumed I knew all there was to know about it. I’ve researched it, I’ve (over)analyzed it, I’ve lived it. But the first couple weeks of this current episode were different. Even CeAnne thinks so. I didn’t “just” feel deeply depressed, I felt…

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Is a Thought Just a Thought? **TW: SI/Suicide**

Is a Thought Just a Thought? **TW: SI/Suicide**

**Personal Note: Though I have been diagnosed with three different mental health conditions, I usually speak mostly of depression, as that is the one I have the most experience with and have done the most personal research on. But much of what I share (in any post) can apply to other mental health diagnoses.**   One of the most profound – and helpful – things I occasionally remember learning from my DBT class is that thoughts cannot hurt you. Say what?…

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Ignorance is Not Bliss: About Suicide **(T/W)**

Ignorance is Not Bliss: About Suicide **(T/W)**

Here in the U.S., National Suicide Prevention Week (September 10-16, 2017) just ended. Did you know that? And, according to most mental health organizations in the U.S., September is National Suicide Prevention Month. I bet you didn’t know that. World Suicide Prevention Day was last Sunday, the tenth. I bet you didn’t know that, either. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255 [1-800-273-TALK]) has designated the Twitter hashtag “#BeThe1To” as its message for suicide prevention. If you’re on the Twitter, please…

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Depression Doesn’t Have to Last Forever: My Experience With TMS

Depression Doesn’t Have to Last Forever: My Experience With TMS

I’ve been fairly stable since last fall, after my second round of TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation). But after a more recent bout of bad days, occasional panic, and a bit of suicidal ideation (not anymore, don’t worry!), my psychiatrist, Dr. Nelson, and I decided to start another round of it. Of course, I talked to CeAnne about it, but ultimately, it’s my decision. I take my mental health care seriously; I have to. I pay attention to Dr. Nelson during…

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Don’t Believe Everything You Think

Don’t Believe Everything You Think

Sometimes I think my brain is out to kill me. It tells me things like: “You don’t matter” “You suck!” “Go ahead and drink, no one will know – or care.” “You’re always going to feel like this.” In other words, it defies logic. My brain has a mind of its own, and it doesn’t always make sense. Maybe more than most. But because I’m in DBT right now, and because my depression has lifted quite a bit since last…

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The Best Concert I Never Saw

The Best Concert I Never Saw

I’m a little proud of myself right now. How often do we say that to ourselves? Probably not much. Definitely not enough. I am a recovering alcoholic. I’ve been sober most of the last 29 years. Yes, I’ve had some relapses. Too many to count, in fact. But I didn’t drink today, which is especially awesome, because I really wanted to. MUSIC IS FOR LOVERS About a month ago, I bought two tickets to a concert by a group called…

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Project Semicolon (Trigger Warning)

Project Semicolon (Trigger Warning)

It’s been about a month since Amy Bleuel died by suicide. Many of you have heard of her and the nonprofit she started, Project Semicolon. For those of you who haven’t, Project Semicolon exists to show support for those with mental illness or other mental health issues. The semicolon (;) means that an author or writer could have ended her sentence but chose not to. It continues, it goes on. And so must we. In recent years, as a direct…

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